Haven’t posted anything in a while and if I am being honest, I thought I was done writing. Little life update from where we left off… I was working a seasonal job at amazon, my little family of three finally moved into our own house, my mom finally moved into a new house, it has been almost a year and a half since we lost daddy and I have new plans on school/career.
Now that we are all up to speed lets start. Thursday night I pulled up to my work, Amazon, like any other day, I worked wednesday thru Sunday, so it was my tuesday. I walked in put all my things away and walked over to clock in. About an hour or so goes by when my departments operations manager walks over to me and says that our HR needs to talk to me. I walk over to the HR office and wait at this table until they finally bring me into one of the offices, my manger is in there. They sit me down and tell me that they have over estimated how many people they were needing for Prime Week and that I was no longer needed (I was seasonal). I call B and tell him the unfortunate news and drive home. I wasn’t angry or sad, all I could think about was what was next? I now had a rent, electricity and a gas bill. On top of that we spend anywhere from $150-$250 a month on groceries. We have money in savings and after talking to B, I decided I would casually apply for a new job but also sign back up for school. I am not a “school person” so I decided a program would be better for me. I have decided to get my Real Estate License and I am actually excited and looking forward to starting my classes. Instead of looking at the negative, I am being positive. I use to work nights and by the time I would get home and settle down for bed it would be 4:30 am sometimes even 5:00 am. Having a daughter who is a little over a year old, that schedule never worked. Unfortunately, a lot of responsibility for her fell on my mom, not that she didn’t offer to help or didn’t enjoy watching her granddaughter. I always felt like as her mother though I was missing out on a lot. Now until further notice I get to be home with my daughter and I get to spend time with B when he gets off work. That’s another thing we had opposite schedules. He would be gone from 7:00 am to about 6:00 pm and I would leave for work around 6:00 pm and work from 7:00 pm to 3:30 am. By the time he got home from work I was already gone and by the time I woke up during the day he was already at work. It has only been two days since I was “fired” and I can already breathe easier. I know to most its not a big deal but this morning was something I yearned for. I set my alarm to 5:30 am (which I use to only do on my days off) got up, started my Keurig because I can’t seem to function without a cup of coffee, started a load of laundry and took towels out of the dryer and then sat down. I drank my coffee in peace and quiet. B’s alarm hadn’t gone off yet, our daughter was still sound asleep I had nothing but “me time”. After my coffee I decided I was gonna make banana pancakes like my mom use to make me. I never understood how something so simple as making pancakes would bring me so much joy but just finally having time to myself and being able to be home with my family brings me nothing but immense joy. Now as the world and my household starts to wake up I can’t help but smile thinking how I will never take the little things for granted again.